How not to start off your day ..

This morning I started my day with a surgery. Thanks to agoraphobia I have a hard time (Well let me be honest).. I am a nervous anxiety filled wreck at even Dr appt and especially surgeries. The staff were all absolutely wonderful and sweet including my Dr. But I was still completely tense and the pulse monitor agreed, but I am happy to say I made it through and I don't regret it and am glad I went through with it. This blog was born as I sat at a Dr. Appointment last month and I'm grateful for all the wonderful new people I am meeting thanks to this blog. I know appointments are agonizing but we really must push ourselves to take care of ourselves. Time for me to get a little rest.. Goodnight all

I'm A Terrible Cook!

Ok I said it. "I am a terrible cook." It's not for a lack of trying. I follow recipes but the end product usually still isn't delicious. So with that being said. I am going to add new post to the blog. Recipes I tried that came out YUMMY! That means if I can manage to make it, it must be easy to make and hard to mess up. So I will post successes with the link to the recipe since we all know I do not have the cooking aptitude to create my own recipes. Tonight's dish... Stuffed Shells <--- Recipe Link

And it was absolutely delicious and relatively easy to make. As you can see I think I overstuffed mine alittle but it was still yummy!! Mmmmm

The Latest Agoraphobic Adventure (Can You Guess?)

Yes blueberries! There is a small blueberry patch near my home and I am happy to say that I made it there... And was able to stay long enough to pick a bucket full. YAY! Plus capture a few pictures.. I am so thankful.

"Why Even an Hour Can Make a Difference"

This picture was taken as I attempted to get a few groceries.. I was having a horrible time yesterday
and fled out of the store without buying anything.. I sat in my car feeling hopeless, defeated, and my
anxiety was horrible. I thought I will never be able to get groceries and do everything on my own. Why
am I like this? Why can't I be normal? I won't go into every symptom because I know it can be a trigger
for some. So I left the store but I didn't go home. I parked the car and sat for awhile, then I walked
around and calmed down. And about an hour later this happened..

The store was less crowded. I was alittle calmer and I was able to get the groceries I needed.. (smiles)

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Sometimes Taking The First Step Can Be The Hardest Part..

Sometimes when I think about traveling or even leaving the house for that matter I will become so nervous. I will work myself into a frenzy, heart racing, hands shaking, and ready to give up before I even tried. A very smart lady once told me "Just do it!” quit thinking and obsessing and just do it! No matter how far you get or even if you don't make it to your destination it's still an accomplishment. I challenge you and myself to "Just Do It" whether it’s just stepping outside your front door, grocery shopping, or whatever your agoraphobia prevents you from accomplishing... Just take the first step...

Co-writer ;)

What Is The Agoraphobic Adventure of the Day?

My goal is to beat agoraphobia, meet other agoraphobics and encourage anyone on a personal journey to overcome an obstacle... With that being said. Here was my obstacle today.. Grocery shopping. Yes I know it may sound weird but the whole process is pretty unnerving for me. Being away from home, being a far distance from the exit, and then there is the check-out line; possibly the most excruciating part of all. I just went in for 3 things. I can get three things I can do it! I went in swiftly and grabbed what I needed. There were a few people ahead of me in line and I really thought seriously about bailing and just coming back later or never.. LOL. But I made it, with a racing heart, sweating and not hearing a word the cashier said.. I made it. It’s amazing how good it feels to carry my three groceries home. My goal is to travel and the world outside of my little fishbowl, but for now I will save money (for travel expenses and possibly an ER visit... just joking about the last part). But I will take a field trip every day and force myself to leave the house every day and share it with y'all... Till tomorrow. I hope everyone has a good evening.