Happy Birthday Mom

       Last weekend was my mother's birthday. She turned 56 years young :). My mother and I haven't always had the best relationship as she is Bi-polar and with my agoraphobia/panic disorder we have bumped heads and had a quite few times of not speaking to each other over the years, but we are always in the learning process of each other’s illnesses. With that being said, I knew it was important to her for me to attend her birthday party. So I made a plan...

Agoraphobic Adventure: Beach Time

     Our Agoraphobic adventure was going to a small beach near by. It was a short drive (and thankfully within my comfort zone) so I could actually sit and relax. The beach was pretty much empty so we spent the afternoon making sand castles and just enjoying being out of the house :)

How not to start off your day ..

This morning I started my day with a surgery. Thanks to agoraphobia I have a hard time (Well let me be honest).. I am a nervous anxiety filled wreck at even Dr appt and especially surgeries. The staff were all absolutely wonderful and sweet including my Dr. But I was still completely tense and the pulse monitor agreed, but I am happy to say I made it through and I don't regret it and am glad I went through with it. This blog was born as I sat at a Dr. Appointment last month and I'm grateful for all the wonderful new people I am meeting thanks to this blog. I know appointments are agonizing but we really must push ourselves to take care of ourselves. Time for me to get a little rest.. Goodnight all

The Latest Agoraphobic Adventure (Can You Guess?)

Yes blueberries! There is a small blueberry patch near my home and I am happy to say that I made it there... And was able to stay long enough to pick a bucket full. YAY! Plus capture a few pictures.. I am so thankful.

What Is The Agoraphobic Adventure of the Day?

My goal is to beat agoraphobia, meet other agoraphobics and encourage anyone on a personal journey to overcome an obstacle... With that being said. Here was my obstacle today.. Grocery shopping. Yes I know it may sound weird but the whole process is pretty unnerving for me. Being away from home, being a far distance from the exit, and then there is the check-out line; possibly the most excruciating part of all. I just went in for 3 things. I can get three things I can do it! I went in swiftly and grabbed what I needed. There were a few people ahead of me in line and I really thought seriously about bailing and just coming back later or never.. LOL. But I made it, with a racing heart, sweating and not hearing a word the cashier said.. I made it. It’s amazing how good it feels to carry my three groceries home. My goal is to travel and the world outside of my little fishbowl, but for now I will save money (for travel expenses and possibly an ER visit... just joking about the last part). But I will take a field trip every day and force myself to leave the house every day and share it with y'all... Till tomorrow. I hope everyone has a good evening.